Time Suck

I realized yesterday that I was getting burnt out and tired and I needed a day away from the bookstore. So I switched my days off and stayed home today. I made a list last night - things I wanted to do around the house, general get-it-done kind of day. Instead, I have barely left the bed. I did some mild rearranging of piles of things and have watched many hours of television and have fallen asleep twice since waking up this morning. But I have not actually gotten anything done. And I feel like I have fallen into some sort of time suck warp. I keep thinking about what I wanted to accomplish today, how good it will feel when I do finish it and how hard it is for me to actually move - get up, go do it.

I recognize that probably I am tired and need to rest. That my body is telling me something. But what I feel like it is saying is that I'm lazy and unmotivated. Of course I am totally not - but I hate that the day is half over before I am waking up to utilize it. And I hate that I have so little time left to tackle my list and I hate that I don't get another day off until next Monday or Wednesday. So today needs to be the day. Maybe this little online self-scolding will motivate me.

But what I really wonder is how that time-suck warp starts. You know, so I can see it coming and thwart it next time...