Why I hate my constant state of financial stress

No immediate means to provide for my future
This thin veil of stress that accompanies me at all times
I cannot refill my prescriptions.
I cannot fix my water softener.
I cannot put up a fence so my dogs can run free instead of being on 10-foot chains.
I can't make my credit rating better because I never have enough to pay everything on time.
I can't afford to go back to school for my doctorate.
I can't paint my walls, finish my floors, tear out the deck and put in a patio or re-side the house.
I can't repave my driveway which is still half gravel from the sewer incident.
I am no longer carefree.

Relevent to the turmoil around the world and the atrocities suffered by it's citizens, these are small, petty and shallow concerns. Which makes me feel small and useless. Trapped. Unable to be a humanitarian or giver, because I am consumed by this constant state of financial hurt. And I must focus all my energies and time on daily and monthly debt instead of on intellectual thought, proactive behavior and just doing SOMEthing unrelated to self.